You feel down.
You feel like your life is a mess and nothing makes sense anymore.
You feel lonely and that the people around you don't get it.
It may not be depression. You might be undergoing a spiritual awakening.
I've witnessed and helped many people go through a spiritual awakening over the years -- both in my work and my personal life. They are messy. They make you feel crazy. They make you feel like you're in the middle of a tsunami and hanging on for dear life.
As difficult as it is to undergo such a transformation, It's all part of being human and waking up.
The list is long, but here are just 3 things I've noticed that indicate you're on the verge of a spiritual awakening:
1. The shit hits the fan.
You get fired. Your lover leaves you. You’re diagnosed with cancer. These are some of the heavy-duty things that suddenly bring your spiritual life into sharp focus. They shake up the very core of who you think you are, what’s important and why you're here on the planet.
You might see this as life handing you a raw deal. You may have a strong impulse to turn your back on it. Reject it. Stick your fingers in your ears and start singing la-la-la-la-la.
These are all perfectly reasonable. I’ve done them myself.
What I’ve noticed, however, is that shit hittin' the fan is a usually a course correction along your spiritual journey. Think of it as a GPS re-calculating your route after you’ve veered off the map.
2. You want more.
You may have no clue what's going on or why, but you look around and want more. Less stuff, more meaning. Less holding back, more arms-wide-open vulnerability. Less superficial relationships, more true connecting. No longer satisfied with the usual offerings, your soul is hungry and needs to be fed. So you go looking (and you usually find it).
3. A teacher appears.
You've probably heard the saying: "When the student is ready, the teacher appears."
The teacher can be someone who you bump into on the check-out line at the market. It can be an experience you keep having. It can be a book that finds its way to you.
I had a book fall into my hands that was one of those books.
It was 1996, and I was spending my first winter volunteering and living at Kripalu Yoga Center. I was in chronic pain from my previous job as a reporter at a newspaper. I had no direction or money. I heard about Kripalu and that you could live there in exchange for working. So I went. I cleaned toilets and showers. I used my skills to help edit newsletters. I pitched in wherever I was needed. One night, I was wandering alone through the library on the top floor. A book literally fell out of the stacks and into my hands. It was A Path with Heart by Jack Kornfeld. It sang to my heart and help me start healing all the pain in there. Since then, I read it every few years. It still teaches me things.
Tell me what your experience has been like.